In Jessie's Words!!

   Jesse Lee, WOW how excited I was when your mom called and told me that was what they were naming you. I couldn’t believe it, the first grandchild named after me. The spelling needed to be different so a little boy would be ok with being named after his grandmother. I remember the day you were born how it felt to hold you the first time. All the other grandmothers and grandfathers were there but for just a few moments it was just you and me in the world. "Thank you for those moments.”

I am not sure where the years have gone but they have been so enjoyable watching you grow into the strong young man you are. But I miss that cute smile of a 5 year old, the questions and boy did you have questions. The little scraps we had to put a Bugs Bunny band aid on, trying to catch you when you decided you were not going to be. “Thank you for those moments” Grade school, middle school, high school and then collage, who would have ever thought you would be in collage at 16 be please with yourself on this one.

And now you belong to the US Army….but your only 17 how can that be. Ever wonder why a grandmother always start with ‘But he’s only XX” when talking about the things a grandchild does. The Army has no idea what a great young man they have just gotten, as with many families whose men and women have chosen to join the military we have such mixed feeling. Pride oh yes I am very proud of you, I brag about you all the time and what a great kin you are. Deep inside is the worry and fear of what you’ll get into and see while serving your country. So many before you still carry the scares of war some you can see some you cannot. This world is so unsettled right now but it part of life I think.

I support you 100% in your decision to join the Army and I know how excited you are to be part of the Special Forces. But you just have to except how close to tears I get when I talk to you about your decision that is not going to change. If you could take 1 grandmothers tear and break it down you would find so much love, caring, pride, worry, encouragement, and the want to keep that little 5 year old boy 5 for ever. We both know that is impossible so Jesse I will watch for that smile that always gives a quick look at the little boy I miss so much as I watch you walk though life challenges still growing, learning and teaching I am so proud of you and love you so very much. “Thank you for those moments”

Love

Your Grandmother Jessie LeAnn

6/20/09

HAPPY SUNDAY!

Things are normal here in Oregon, rain then sun then rain then wind then rain LOLO.  

Got my new bedroom set delivered about 2 weeks ago so now that means changing the window dressings, the throw rugs, ever notices when a women buys 1 thing new it ends up being mult things new. Like you can’t buy a dress with out the shoes to match and god forbid you don’t have a purse to match the new shoes and then the earrings, you get the idea. I decided to get the bedroom done done done, I have started something in every room but not one room is complete.

My spring flowers are so tall and getting ready to bloom that can’t be right, and I think next weekend we change our clocks a head. March that is like 3 months already into this year before you know it will be Christmas again, I can’t believe I just said that. I will be 62 this year and wanted to retire by the end of this year but I don’t think that will happen with the way things are in the world. But I am just thankful to have a good job and good pay when so many don’t and are losing their homes. My heart goes out to them, I hear people say things I think are wrong like well they took on those payments and they had to have that house stuff like that. Well like me I brought this house knowing I had a good job and could afford it but if I lost my job I would have to sale my home. I disagree when people say things that are so hurt full. We make decision based on our jobs, savings and when those are pulled out from under you it is very hard to stay afloat. I am not impressed with what our Pres is doing but it is a wait and see.

My daughter and her best friends and the two little ones are coming down next Friday for the day I am very excited to see them. I always enjoy there company and the time we have. I have the day off so I am also getting a bid on a heat pump for the house.

I got a Gazelle this past week and trying to see how that works out with my knees. Those who have read my blog for a while I am sure notice the scale for weight loss has gone the wrong way the past couple months so I need to get that stopped and get it headed in the right direction again. Boy weight is a never ending battle. It sure goes on faster and easier than taking it off. I will always be a plus size but I need to take off 50 lbs and it sure giving me a fight.  Have a wonderful week and SPRING is just a few weeks away.

Peace

Jessie